LOVE... NEWAYS

Hey readers.... been a long time since I revisited my life and today when I sat chatting with a friend did I realise how much I missed out on the emotion we soo commonly call "love".
To begin with, I would be honest enough to admit the fact that unlike those tall dark and handsome ppl whom girls always adore and love, I am but a decent , rather obese person whoz life neva involved the pleasures of love letters and mushy mushy dialogues et all.... and the truth is , although I have been jealous of those "lucky" guys, it didnt really matter ... coz deep within me I programmed myself for much more important issues relating to my life.But in the long run I have completely lost faith in this particular emotion they call love... Not that it hurts, coz if u are aware of the capabilities of the human brain to mould itself to a format, you wouldnt be suprised that my mind doesnt register this emotion nemore and it is very simple to live your life in its conscious presence...but then again it does sumtimes strike u that sumday when all those frnds around you get busy with their own lives, you will be reduced to juss a loner wishin "love" did happen to u and u were atleast worth somebody's heartbeat !!
Well well thats a far off thought that one gets when u r sleepless at 4 am in the mornin and within the next 4 hrs ur regular day begins and u once again enter ur shelll of self defiance and move on with a life tht has been very neatly packed and parcelled leavin no space for love or sorrow over the absence of it.